Well it's been seven years now, and seven is harder than one was. I think it's because of how challenging this year has been for me. I've faced so many fears this past year. I've thought of you many times to help me get through my troubles.
There is so much that you've missed that I wish you were here to share in. I have an amazing son who in many ways reminds me of you. He is smart like his grandfather and wants to understand how things work and why. This is a trait you also passed to me. You two would have been great friends. He loves to eat and is not afraid of any food. He even loves tomatoes just like you.
Aubrey has grown into a beautiful young lady. She also got your brains. She has a big heart but doesn't want anyone to know, just like you. She keeps me in line.
I wish I had the opportunity to tell you how much you meant to me. And to thank you for being the most loving father I could have ever asked for. You spoiled me and let me believe the world was mine. You and mom taught me to love myself and not to let anyone push me around. You taught me to love and be brave. You showed me it was ok to lose sometimes but not to give up. You were always there to catch me when I fell, even though sometimes you should have let me fall.
Because of you I eat ice cream out of a coffee mug, I don't tie my shoe laces perfectly, I want answers to my questions, I know how to drive, I am not computer illiterate, I love spicy foods. Like you I don't need to be recognized for everything I do.
I wish we had more time together or I had at least taken better advantage of the time we did have. I understand that time is not guaranteed to us and every moment is precious. There are so many times I want to pick up the phone and call you and I can't, but I close my eyes and think of you and try to imagine what you would say to me. I love you and will always miss you.
Thank you for being my Daddy!
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